Today was supposed to be day 3. A day 3.  My intake on drinking days has become progressively more alarming, a bottle and change for nights and nights in a row until my next lifelong sobriety attempt, which attempts, perhaps not coincidentally, have become more serious, but not necessarily more successful. I have dispensed gradually… Read More outpouring

Yesterday my blog turned 2.  It is now securely into its third year. Happily I’m in a sober streak. Like many who are much deeper into recovery than me, I don’t know why the most recent day one stuck.  but I’ve learned and read about a zillion motivating things over the years (I can say years now,… Read More Blog-o-versary

I’ve been working on me.  My mindset about life.  My ‘sobriety’ I guess if you want to put it that way.  I don’t.  Because I don’t want my life to be about alcohol and whether it’s there or not there…there, not there….the back and the forth, the day count.  I don’t want to identify with… Read More What do you get the alcoholic who has everything?

There are not many causes I care as much about as animal rights.  So it was hard for me to pick up this book.  Because after I read many of Augusten Burroughs big titles – Running with Scissors, Dry, A Wolf at the Table, I heard about a torturous and ultimately fatal experience he forced on a mouse that… Read More Another Book Review – and why I don’t blog here much

  I’m a writer by trade.  I don’t get to write creatively or even fictionally or even about a topic most people find the least bit interesting, but I am so grateful every day that I get to be paid for writing.  It’s something I never thought i’d be able to do.  And realizing how… Read More Big Wisdom

I have been unapologetically rejecting the sober scene for a while, perhaps quite obviously.  Distressed by the rate of relapse (i mean turns out no one is really sober sober, right?), in LOVE with drinking, and not so distressed by my pretty safe (if compulsive and indulgent) drinking habits. I’ve given myself permission to drink for… Read More Checking Back In To Bloghab

This, from Malcom Gladwell, is not new, but it was new to me, and I found it fascinating.  Probably a lot of people in the sober community will find this offensive or harmful – it casts American drinking habits as more a product of cultural cues than genetics.  It almost suggests that problematic drinking habits could… Read More Drinking Games

This is for me to come back to, to remind myself.  But to the extent that it’s useful for anyone else, here it is.  I imagine I’ll come back and add to it from time to time. Not drinking today even though I had a half hour before picking up the kids when I gave… Read More Why I need to stop

Yesterday, day 0, as I was making my way through my last bottle of wine for a while, circling April 2 in my planner, contemplating the relief and clarity and healthful feelings that would be my Day 1 today (Saturday), my husband – who I still have not alerted to the depths of my internal… Read More bullet dodged

I’m 35.  I think that’s a really good age to quit drinking.  Old enough that I need to grow the F up, young enough that I can still really change the course of my life, and even my kids’ lives.  I can be ‘hip’ sober and transfer my addiction to something super active, which I think… Read More 35